Tuesday, August 30, 2005

Relationship Advice

I know everyone has been in this situation: "You love him, but you know there is no way in hell it will ever work." Let me give you some advice, especially since I've been there and just recently got out of one of those situations.... RUN LIKE HELL! If you suspect he's cheating, he probably is. If you think he's lying, he probably is. If you think he is somewhere other than "his best friends house" chances are : HE IS! Don't put yourself in a situation that you know you don't want to be in. I have been in this, and its not fun. I was in a 2 year relationship that I knew from day one was never going to work. Why you ask did I do that? Just to prove to everyone that you can tame a wild horse. I did it, and I did it well. Yes mom, I will now admit; and read slowly because I'll never say it or type it again: YOU WERE RIGHT! Are you happy now? I know I should have ended it before it started and ran like a mad woman on crack through a cop infested neighborhood. But, for anyone that knows me, they also know that I am very stubborn, and like to find things out on my own. (Hi, Amy!) Everyone runs to me with relationship problems because I listen, and 99% of the time, the advice I give is accurate and gets the best results. Mom, stay the hell away from Tom! Your putting yourself in one of those "I know it will never work" situations. Amy, your doing the best thing, no matter how much it hurts. You will get through it. Meghan.........I guess there isn't really anything I can tell myself that I don't already know. I'm looking for something or someone that I know exsists somewhere, I just haven't found it yet. I may be wild and a little unpredictable...ok a lot unpredicatable, but thats what keeps me going. I don't make plans or appointments, I just do whatever feels right at the time. I never thought I would say this, no mom, I'm not saying you were right again, I am 110% happy with being ALONE! I love it. I do what I please and when I please to do it. Nobody holds me back or wants dinner when I get home, other than the cat but she doesn't count. I like not having someone to call me every 5 minutes and want to know where I am, or who I am with. I like sleeping alone in my big bed so I can stretch out and hog the covers, (Sorry, kitty). I used to believe that being alone meant being unhappy. Now, I strongly believe that being alone means much happiness. You will never be able to make someone else happy, until you can be completely by yourself and be happier than ever!

Monday, August 29, 2005

The Voices Told Me To

I sometimes get these wierd impulses, and for anyone that knows me, they also know that since birth, I have been unable to control these voices which create the impulses. Sometimes I get in trouble for them, (Hi Mary in HR!!) and sometimes I laugh so hard my stomach hurts and I've got tears running down my face. Well, Friday night I got one of these famous "impulses." I was on my way home at about 4:oo a.m. and decided to call a friend to tell him I was dying and that he should meet me at my house to hold me until that point. He answers the phone and it went something like this:
Friend: "Hey Meghan"
Me: "Hey Sex puppet, whats going on?"
Friend: "Oh, not a whole hell of a lot just hanging out at Mitch's"
Me:"Well, thats sounds like ass loads of fun, but I'm dying:
Friend: "Your what?"
Me:" You heard me crack pot, I'm dying."
Friend: "well everyone has to die sometime. What are you dying from?"
Me: "Lack of sex.....and beer.....and you."
Friend: "Well I can't let that happen, now can I?"
Me: "No, because you'd be one cold hearted son of a bitch if you did!" Plus, you left something turned on at my house anyway."
Friend: "I did? What would that be?"
Me: "That would be me, you jackass, are you coming over or what? I'm tired of fucking with you and your starting to piss me off."
Friend:" Yes, you angry little midget, I'm coming over. I'll meet you there." Oh, and Meghan..."
Me:" Yes, bunny rabbit....."
Friend: " The next time you need something, or some, just call me and tell me that."
Me:"So, our next conversation will go something like, "Hey you, meet me at my house so we can do it."
Friend: "That'll work, but there better be a bubble bath and candles involved because I like to be romanced."
Me: "Screw you bunny, no bubbles and no candles." I'll see you in 5 minutes."
Friend: "Ok, see ya then."
Me: " Bye muffin!"
Friend: "bye midget!"

*-*- God, is it just me or am I hilarious? Ok, maybe it is just me. But haven't they always said that until you make yourself happy, you can't make someone else happy? Well, I'm pretty freakin' happy right now. I'm just a dork I guess! hahah

Thursday, August 25, 2005

God Bless Hawaii

Does anyone watch "Dog: The Bounty Hunter"? If you do, then you know what I'm talking about when I say Leland is just freakin sexy. He's the only reason I watch it, well, that and the Hawaiian bums and convicts and pretty hilarious. I love it when he takes his shirt off and just wears his bullet proof vest. The man makes his pony tail look great. I don't usually like that stuff, but he is just wonderfully delicious. I'm planning a trip to Hawaii for my own "bounty hunting" adventure. Maybe I"ll even get to arrest him and put him in handcuffs, grrrr. Ok, done with my little fantasy now, back to the real world!

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

Sex, Drugs, and Yee-haws

Last night I found myself in the wierdest dream possible. I was in the middle of a round-pen(for those of you who don't know what that is, its a circular pen for keeping horses or cows), blaring Def Leopard coming from somewhere around me, and surrounded by lots of good looking cowboys. Now, this might not seem that wierd to you, but it kinda was. These cowboys were staring at me and shouting indecipherable, words. I am very "yeehaw" friendly, I grew up in a town where there is more livestock than people. Don't get me wrong, I love the cowboys. But when they are all standing around in their stetsons and wranglers shouting stuff at you, it can be a little scary. I promise I'm not on any kind of drugs, this was completely sober dreaming. I'm beginning to think, someone is trying to pull me back to my roots. Maybe I need to go find a cowboy to love on for a while.......any suggestions anyone?

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

Thoughts In My Head

Oh, what a tangled web of deceit we all weave......how do we not get caught? People are way more foolish than they lead you to believe.

Sick and Tired

I am so damn tired of everyone around me telling me how fucking "irresponsible" they think I am. I'm 19 years old. I have my own house, I pay my own bills, and I pay my own car note, insurance, plus I work a full time job from 6a.m. until 3p.m. I don't know about anyone else, but I know not one 19 year old that does that. I am completely independent and depend on NOBODY FOR SHIT. I make more money than both of my parents, and they're the ones asking me for it. Yea, I may party too hard and stay up too late, but what 19 year old doesn't? At least I get my ass up and get to work every fucking day of the week. If one more person tells me they "think I am irresponsible" I am going to scream and stab them in the eye with a stilletto shoe. I'm tired of being surrounded by such negative and unhappy people. I am very happy living on my own. I'm not married, nor will I ever be because I"ve seen the shit it causes and I'll be damned if I let some man tell me where I can and can't go. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck!!!!! Ok, I'm done........whew.........I feel better now, and my day can carry on as planned. :)

Crazy World of Me

Is it just me or does everyone have that "one special person", of which they can't let go? I secretly rewound my life back 2 and a half years(before the evil, dark days of Meghan) and tried harder than ever to remember why I had "let go" of "Bubba". A few nights ago I ran into him at a local hangout/dancehall and we had the best time we'd ever had. He got my number and said he would call later. We ended up shutting the place down, and I left (alone), while he stayed and talked with his friends. He did call around 4 a.m. and we got together. We spent a lot of time catching up and talking about the old days when we used to date. Now, forward 2 and a half years to the present.....this is the age AFTER JOSH as we'll call it. I'm still a little bitter and reluctant towards a lot of men. He(josh) hurt me in ways I didn't think I could be hurt. He pushed me around, belittled me, and had absolutely no respect for the "girlfriend he loved so much" and whom he lived with in MY HOUSE, rent free for 6 months. These past couple of hellishly GREAT months without him, have been wonderful and many adventurous nights. Bubba happened to come into the picture at the right time. We dated prior to me and the evil ass goblin with no job and a crackhead new girlfriend (Josh), and now I'm thinking I'm ready to have another boyfriend to kick around. I know Bubba, I know his "habits" and routines, so I'm not like taking on a new chore. We get along great, he's got an amazing personality and many many great ASSets. We hung out last night and watched a movie, he was sweet, he was GREAT! ;)
I think my life has gotten back on the right track and completely turned around. I'm happy, I'm in a good mood (most of the time), and I actually get to go out and NOT come home if I want. I love it!!!!!!

Monday, August 22, 2005

My Evil World

Has anyone ever wondered how some people can wander aimlessly through life and not care what goes on around them or whats happening. Take my ex for example: he's a lazy, piece of crap that would rather collect unemployment and mooch off of "the new girlfriend" than get his lazy butt up and get a damn job so he can feel like a man and support himself and his son, and maybe even take the new chick out to eat sometime. He borrows money from everyone, and could care less wether he paid it back or not. How can someone do that? All these bums in the world and nobody other than me wants to stick a foot in their ass.......or a stilletto shoe in their eye!