Wednesday, October 26, 2005

Cry Pussy

From : Joshua Smith
Sent : Wednesday, October 26, 2005 5:49 AM
To : Meghan
Subject : You and I






Meghan,
It's incredibly difficult for some people to find that one person that will be there until the end, in fact, most people are old in age before they can find some "filler" to spend the rest of their years. It's amazing how small of a speck each and every life really is in the big scheme of things, and yet the little time we have in this life, and the few chances we have to get it right, we still waste a large part of it fighting useless battles and working too hard to acquire things that will have no real value when we die. I want to spend the rest of my life doing whatever makes me happy so that when I leave this world I'll know that I did everything there was in life to do, and that I took every available chance to do what I did right. I believe that despite what a person has done in their past, they have the chance to change their own future. I guess what you need to know is that I'm lucky, I'm lucky to have met you so early in life. I was just visiting a friends house and there YOU were. I could never have known the impact that you would have on my life, or my heart. You are my one TRUE love, and no one before you or after you will ever mean as much to me as you. No One. I really thought I knew what love was, until my ignorance and immature attitude let me walk out of your house. Since then I haven't felt right, I wasn't able to walk away from you like I had everything and everyone else that had gone wrong in my life. I needed you and I still do. You are there in everything I do, even in my dreams. I want you to know that I love You, and I will always love You. Whoever it was that made the plans concerning our lives apparently knew that You and I were to be together. It was not a mistake. Josh

*-*After seeing him last night, and spending much needed time together, as I got in my car to drive home, I did cry. I cried like a little pussy........

4 comments:

Marilyn said...

so, because he says it, it is so? He is a clever boy. He speaks every 2 weeks or so about how much he loves you and how you are destined to be together, in case he decides to get his shit together, you may actually still be around for him.
Meanwhile, he is treating another human being like complete shit and it doesn't seem to bother him at all.
He is a class act.

LoveMeHell said...

he doesn't treat her like shit, he just knows that with her is not where he wants to be forever. he doesn't want to hurt her....

Marilyn said...

um...calling you in front of her and telling you "I love you" is hurtful. cheating on her is hurtful. You will ultimately make your own decisions, and it is your right to do so, but I just wanted to point out his tactic (which is a fairly common one)

killjoy said...

He is full of it. He needs to learn when to back off and let her figure out what she wants. You can't manipulate someone into loveing you. Back off give her her space and if she wants to be with you then she will let you know. He may even find with space that there our other interest that he would rather pursue. If he cheated or hurt her in any way, then you mine as well pack it up because she will always see you that way.What you do and say in this life will stay with you for ever.