Tuesday, October 25, 2005

Understand Me?

I can not begin to explain how sick and fucking tired I am, of dealing with other people's shit. I don't care what problems your having at home, what people you can't stand, what music pisses you off, or anything. I DON'T CARE! I have my own problems to worry about. And really, they're not that big of a problem. I have bills too. I have guy problems, I have car trouble. I may not be married, have kids, or mortage payments.....but bills are all the same, they are BILLS. You have to pay them or you lose service. I'm not married because I chose not to be. I don't have kids because I chose not to have any. Everything I have, I want. I am completely happy in my apartment, with my car, and my cat. I'm not in debt, and I don't owe anyone shit. I do everything I can to help other people out when asked. I am a happy, out going, and energetic person and only 19 fucking years old for those of you that didn't know or haven't been told. I am a smart ass, and stubborn as hell, but I come by it honest. I'm not quick to apologize, especially if I feel like an apology isn't needed. I tend to piss people off and not care, and say things that hurt people and not care. I am very blunt and say what I mean. If I tell you that your hair looks like shit, it's the truth. I'm not fake and try and like someone or something, just to avoid confrontation. I am a very confrontational person and I stand my ground and what I believe in. If I hurt your feelings or have in the past; I'm sorry. Sometimes I mistakingly hurt feelings, step on toes, or become confrontational if I feel like I have to defend myself. Don't mistake that as close minded or shut out from other's views and beliefs. I'm tired of people treating me like a child. I am not. Yes, I know how old I am, but age is just a number. Don't come at me expecting the conversation skills or maturness of a 19 year old because what you'll get is that of a 30 year old. I admit when I am wrong, although, not before I think it through. I know my faults and my inability to accept blame a lot of the times, but that doesn't make me a bad person does it? I can think if a lot worse than accepting blame, to make me a bad person. Everyone has faults, the question is...can they admit it?


*-*-This blog is in no way directed, attacking, nor blaming ANYONE on the face of this earth. Please don't think it is. This entire webpage was created as a way for me to express my feelings and beliefs, so I don't go crazy.*-*

6 comments:

Marilyn said...

"so I don't go crazy"
go crazy? Girl, that is a short trip....

killjoy said...

Hello hello hello is there any body in their. How is that double that you have closed your self into. I guess a lot of people do that these days. It is easier to go through life with an I don't give a flying fuck attitude than to actually have to deal with things like grief, lose, or pain. Don't give people a chance to get close to you and they can't hurt you. I think that is why most people present themselvs with a fa sod. They show poeple what they think they want to see or they have to show such a ruff exterior that know one wants to get close enough to talk to them. It is not surprising though, most people are always out for something bigger and better in life. It is hard to trust. If they just stopped and took a look at what they already have they might understand what they've really got. Oh well maybe I should be the same way Fuck them all. I'm important there not. This is just an oppinion but maybe you don't need to go crazy, you need to find someone to open up to. Good luck

LoveMeHell said...

ok, I don't know who "killjoy" is, but you need to reveal yourself

Land of Sand said...

Honey I think we need to talk.

Land of Sand said...

Don't look now but Dr. Phill (killjoy) is writing on your web site

LoveMeHell said...

Dr. Phil can get off my website and go get on someone else's. Honey, we do need to talk.